Chapter 4 - The philosopher within time

Another year is coming to an end

A human's fate might brake or bend

Living in illusion, in a world of deceit

The everlasting flame of lies is lit

I don't recognize myself anymore

Deluding that my soul is not sore

That i might be happy and filled with love

Instead i'm jumping off the cliff of a cove

An illusion is all that i feel

The fate is just like a wheel

It might be real or all just a dream

A myst that in the morning dissapears

Will I ever be able to live

To truly forget, redeem, forgive

Will i be able to truly smile

The pure sincere smile of a child

My soul will radiate brighter than the sun

Sighs...the story has just begun

i am sick of playing games

A stage set in purging flames

And me just an actor without glory

In life's cruel and endless story

Searching for ideal love

Illusions on the wings of a dove

That fly away not to be caught

Not seen, smelled or sensed by me

Those kind of things cannot be bought

For they roam away from the world, free...

But living in this endless lie

Makes my soul bleed and die

Resurrect and perish once more

Tormented from its skin down to its core

I don't know how much can i take

Before i will bend, before i will brake

Friends without spiritual connection

The shield of human world acts as protection

Protect you from love, from mercy, from pain

But slowly acts like a lethal bane

The bonds that are built are instantly broken

It's just the cruel destiny's token

For you believe in laughter and smiles

And for that life fills you up with cries

Cries of pain, cries of despair

Your soul is facing the electric chair

Will you live or will you die

Saved be you by the tears you cry

Tears that purge and purify

That you can't reject and can't deny

They will be bringed one way or another

To your sister, father, mother

They all will suffer, that the law

We all have to face this beast's deadly paw

The paw that strikes the weak ones down

Those who think are strong bow down

And enter its grip without knowing

In the demon's fog they start drowning

One question forever lingers in my mind

Me and this nightmare will forever bind?

Will i awake and face the life

With all i have, ending this strife

Will i find the love i search

The peace i long for so long....so much

Or will i die in ignorance

A bliss for others...an ensurance

For me a neverending torment

Without hear,sight,smell or scent

An eternal maze and me traped inside

My body, mind and soul collide

Merging all into one, spirits too

But thinking it makes me feel so blue

I wander this earth forever alone

Listening to despair's high tone

Echoing throughout the world

Souls are ever bought and sold

Like a merchandise sold for cash

I think that this is nothing else but trash

One cannot be bought at any price

My soul's freedom ...eternal paradise

A long way to achieve that goal

But i am here to fight...not fall into this hole

A soulmate i need to pull me out

From this void that i dwell in...

And i will shout as hell as loud

I won't give up, i won't give in

Light up my spark, this yearning desire

May it forever burn like Hephaistos fire

An opposition to Medusa's power

Where there is stone...there will be flowers

All the lands will bloom that day

And joyful spirits will bring praise

Remember the dark world as if a dream

And live in peace...outside this storm

That is my dream...won't live to see it

This chaotic world will make sure of it

Greed, lust, envy and malevoyance

People not fighting, living in obedience

Forgetting the basics, where they reside

Where there true home is, their ancestry pride

The pride of Dacia, Maya, or Greece

Lost in the ages with the golden fleece

As things become history, legend and myth

They are forgotten but not by the sleuth

He will remember where his origins lay

And his ancestors will lead him when he is astray

But all this without a kindred soul

Is all in vain I tell you all

Without one to share your hopes

We're living just like second grade dopes

One who will live for us as we live for them

That will give that souls, more precious than gems

The finest jewels the mankind ever seen

The brightest starts in all galaxies they've been

They light up our lives, awake us from this dream

Make them reality, a ledge you can lean

A brick on which you build...a castle

Away from this putrid world's hustle

They are the purest angels of all

They give you wings when you start to fall

They help you reach towards the sky

You helpless find yourself cry

Because you know that without them

You wouldn't be able to fly then

They tend your wounds and heal your soul

So you can accomplish you life's goals

As a conclusion, without a soulmate

A waste of time to challenge fate

With them you are surely winners

Without you are meer gamblers

As i haven't found the one for me

I pray that it isn't the case for thee

I hope that you already found her

Or him...and that you treasure

For if you don't than you're a fool

Drowning in this life's turmoil pool

I say this to all of you

May you be loved for it is true